19 and 1/2 Degrees

They may find my body
By tracing the blood back.
They can piece the story together,
But they'll never find me.
I'll remain in your thoughts for a while
Then the illusion will fade away,
Become some ghost you thought you knew
But a face you don't remember.

They can look in your eyes to see what's left,
I just ask that you put in storage with the rest.
But I don't want to become a moth-eaten toy,
Something you used to adore and now just look fondly on,
A stuffed piece of fabric that brought you comfort,
Nothing more than a memory in a faded picture,
A statue that lost the luster it held in the midday sun,
Now just reduced to one more tarnished piece of metal.

I know you'll rearrange this how you see fit
And we'll be strangers to each others' hearts.
There's nothing left for me in you
Except the remains inside your chest.
But those can be easily removed,
Even those can be erased.
They'll exit in the sweat you leave behind after he's done touching you,
After he gets more than I ever even got a taste of.

I felt it disappear the same time as you
And it took something as it headed into the ether.
I know it had dried up long ago,
It died an easy death without a proper funeral.
And everything I feared,
Everything I said all along came true.
Like those roses ended up in your scrapbook,
So will the love you held for me.